So trusting God...it is a pretty big deal right?
right
You may find yourself truly thinking that you trust God...until a problem arises...for me that problem was money...
I was all like sure I'll trust God with what my confirmation name is supposed to be, what my vocation is supposed to be, what career path I should take, who my husband is going to be...I'll trust God with all of these things...that counts right...
But I didn't think to trust Him with my finances....so what happens?
Well I paid off my first semester of college no problem with the help of financial aid...I think I've got this thing in the bag...I am totally independent and I know how to do this whole money thing...didn't think twice about it...didn't pray about it...gave money at church...but that's about as far as mixing my money and my faith went...the collection basket.
well...freshman year may have been doable...but when I got that bill for sophomore year...I had NO IDEA what I was going to do. Oh my goodness I didn't think there was really a chance that I wouldn't go back to school. I didn't say a real good bye to any of my friends, I didn't finish my education...I HAVE TO GO BACK!
but how?
I tried to take matters into my own hands...dumb idea...and I can just picture God up there in Heaven all like "Brittany, why don't you ask me for help? why don't you let me handle this one?"
Money is just such a worldly thing...I didn't think about asking God...so I ran out of options. I came to dead ends...I cried a lot of tears...by this point people had been telling me to trust God...if I was meant to go back...it would happen...somehow...so I prayed about money...but I really wasn't too sure about it.
Finally I had no options left it was financially impossible for me to pay for school and I gave up...I knew that I wasn't independent...I needed God...and I slowly ...very slowly started to trust Him with my finances...
well weird stuff happened....a loan here
a scholarship there
a grant here
something I didn't even qualify for all the way over there
ok ok God I see now ...I get it...You can help with finances...I don't quite understand it...but I believe it...
And I continue to believe it. Every year I struggle to make ends meet when it comes to paying the school bill and the phone bill and the grocery bill ...and somehow...it all works out...God works it all out...
Granted when God opens a door...you have to do the work to get through it...it is not just like I can pray about money and do nothing about it...but God provides opportunities for me...and I've learned to take them.
I'm positive there are other BIG GIANT lessons God is just itching to teach me, but this one was pretty big. Take a second. Think about it. Reflect on it. Is there something you don't trust God with? Why? Why is it that we don't trust God with everything? What is stopping you? Think its too materialistic for God...I bet you a ton of money you're wrong. Let go...trust Him, He'll figure it out...but when he opens a door, you better climb over that obstacle course to get through it!
